What’s her name ? : Blue

A banquet of blue in a sea of red

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[ stream-of-consciousness-poem . 2019 ]

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Something light is blinding

Binding

Cobalt blue

Cobra through

We feel as if we’ve been cut :

The cut is the crux

of the knot

The knot is a way

To (un)wind through

For what once stood

Osiris outside in the bright sun Set

Purring whirring

Wheel turning

The lion outside

Now a pussy cat

Curled [ heart : So(u)l ] Embrace

Inside

Small creatures coming out of their death

The core of the earth is a light bright light we cannot see

In order to travel there

We must move through

water

In the heart of water

is the SO(u)L of the sun

( This is where techne lies )

Red wine : drink a cup

Aphrodisiac — makes copper lines

Leaves

Chopped earth

Turning turbine

New time-line :

A de-ception

[ they call it de cision ]

Make A Scission —

Negator cuts

Negative

White

Empty

( space )

A cut is a knot to be woven through

A seed is a hull not yet grown into

Stains on the night’s floor

Looking glass through

Fossilised day

A brail felt path

Something to taste

Symphony : a cacophony of metal beasts moving through

Copper heart .

Knot found at 9

Kings in four direction

I live under the wind

The spine of a breath

still inside

Cannot see through

But weave —

A copper beating fly pinned to the back of my heart

My throat :

A memory batter box that catches imprints

— a sun filled ball

A cave : a trap — a web sticky with day

the finger

lies beneath

The snake skin sheds

Hushes us — into

Bed

Slips inside

These little

lines

Silk thighs

She sang it :

Sweetly

the honey was suckle

Her breath a way

Her tongue

[ Sand / wall paper / salt stone lake / flagship thigh / mountain clipped / song bird wings shout out light / bright brother arrives / again to rhymes — places beneath / skin sheath / earnest whose woes / combs his hair / fallen tunnel arrives / just beneath / iris’s garden lace / coat / hand maid in bed / late last night ———————————

Ernest mistake — German trick ]

It held inside a small escape

He found it in the cigarette

A dreamy cloud inhaled

A small loop hole

Discarded Echo leaves :

red dot(s) on —

Now left shattered —

lost ( new ) re ( found ) horizon line :

One years time makes it 9

Seems logical enough

The caterpillar said to Alice

A humming made by energy blocked

Something stopped

bound spine

Mechanical devices , prism vices

Arms swooping

make

shadow puppets on the wall

I’m still clung

2 :

The sum of your parts —

It flickers past

A dusty case —

I left it there

In a house

That gave birth to ghosts

The pleasure wanted

A pleasure granted

Pleasure discarded

decided

because rules make bound fools

Built on a burnt church grounds

Ah what is real ?

You want to say

Cat on the pillar

a tree where Osiris is hallowed out

His dead corpse shell

I want it here :

In my expanse

Light a mark —

Strike a match

Thunder lost ( the ) light

I look into

the eye of the flame —

( a crooked mirror to peer through ) :

A looking glass snakes in — out

It cuts me through

Red nails never painted

the fire’s heart is a blue frame

Took the root

Locked it twice.

Isis found it in the tree

I found it in a box

I leave it now —

To the shadow room , ghosts !

I leave my self

Upon a shelf

Sea above

A moving branch

A fallen star

A plastic bag

dangling

Ornamental pieces

New ghosts to wear —

I want a golem —

To move me through

gleam me onto

So earth take all of me

Have me I am yours

Take me where you’ll have me go

This is then my prayer to you :

grit behind

fingers touch

shell sheath

to the earth’s floor — pinned in space — my feet are blind

as we spin

and they lead me through

feel me to

( a ) wild heaving blue

( The curiousity of

a cat died this summer )

Awoke in me

death bird — a parting

A curled black cat

The seam it broke

The yoke a dream : Aphrodite pushing through

A

Yellow thought

A taxi cab

Cogs leave webs

Make maps

Honking lights I woke up to .

The white clouds stood

Like candy land I thought :

And sat : a king

Look there —

she’s dead .

He shackled her to the chair

Left and laughed

Chinese soup

On the ocean’s bowl floor

Sea : the keeper of the son

He leapt up below

Pulled garments off her head

Left her there

But I know he’s there —

Just beyond that screen . —

A light is time he once said

Gripped my arm —

But I think of time as something shattering

To break into

This shell

It cuts

It bleeds

Each month the moon pulls me there

Stones in my house

3 horse shoes left

Tacked to a wall .

They dangle there

Haunting still

Pieces of my self for sale

Behind : dehor - crux lost now

I now come to the part of the : Regathering .

A re gathering .

Gathering

Bundle .

Re bundling

( womb )

A package sent .

The notes were left

Each piece pasted . Each one strung

Mucus seed

Banquet left — a whale bone yoke

far they wandered — these little fish

All about

Droves of them

These teeming sea dreams

wet dream

burning waters

now still !

alive